Okay so I’ve never really been keen on the term ‘New Year, New Me’, and I think everybody just jumps on the bandwagon without even meaning it or actually doing what they say they’re going to. I found this little quote on Pinterest (where else?!) and just felt that it was very apt to my life right now haha! So that’s what I’m going with.
2015 has been a crazy year to say the least; imagine being on a roller-coaster going full speed whilst work, moving house, bills, emotions, worries, being a mama, difficult situations, and so much more smacking you in the face 24/7. That lightly sums up my year haha! I know it also sounds like it’s been the worst year ever – I’m not denying it but it’s also been a year of lessons, amazing memories and some really exciting opportunities that I’ll never forget and I’m really thankful for.
I’ve learned things about myself I didn’t even realise and I’m a better person and mummy for it. I’ve learned that as much as I love Jax and he will always come first, I’m pretty important too – and I’ve had so much fun since realising this, almost to the point that I feel guilty!!
I’ve learned that friends and family really are everything. This journey would’ve been a thousand times tougher if it wasn’t for the amazing people in my life, constantly making me smile and reminding me how lucky I am and reminding me that I’m stronger than I thought. Of course there are times when I feel like I’m losing my shit and think the world is against me but all I have to do is call one of the angels around me and I’m over it.
I’ve learned that you just need to let things be – no matter what you do or how you think, isn’t going to change how others are or what they think. Everyone is different so expecting somebody to feel how you do, love how you do, treat you how you do them is just too much of an ask and you’re setting yourself up to be let down. No amount of worrying or thinking about ‘what could’ve been’ is going to change what has already happened, and it will only limit your happiness and success in the future.
I’ve learned that I can achieve anything I set out to do & I’ve learned that my only barrier is myself – what a silly barrier to have in the way of your dreams!! I’m so determined to better myself over and over again in 2016.
I’ve learned (sort of!) that it’s okay to ask for help when you need it. This was a hard one for me as I’ve always been very independent and still am – and even thinking about asking somebody to help me out has always been tough for me. I’ve always had the mindset of “I got myself into this situation so I’m the one who has to deal with it. I’m not going to burden others with my problems and my life choices.” I don’t even know why I’ve always thought this but I feel like it’s ingrained in me haha. // My mum has been amazing at gradually persuading me that it’s almost necessary to ask for help when you’re having a shitty time because you’ll eventually have a breakdown which isn’t good for anybody. I think I am getting there and I’ve definitely come a long way but I’ve still got a fair way to go on that one.
Basically I’ve learned a lot about myself this year and it’s definitely been a good thing. I’ll drink to that! (I have also found a bottle of wine I love – never thought that’d happen!) so here’s to a very wine filled 2016! Hahah!
I’m so excited to see what 2016 will bring and I’ve re-set myself some goals (I’ll do a post) that I’m so determined to achieve. I’m so excited to make so many more amazing memories with Jax & my loved ones, I’m excited to really get my vlogging going and I’m excited for all my plans!
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Have an amazing New Year, stay safe and I hope 2016 brings you amazing memories and infinite happiness and laughs!
Love J xxx